I chose my username because the word combination of CandleAshes gave me a certain feeling that I could never quite explain. My English professor gave us a bunch of poems to read in class about a month ago and one of them really hit the nail on the head. It states exactly what I was thinking. That made me very happy, especially since I didn't know about the poem when I made up my username.

Candles

The days of our future stand in fron of us
like a row of little lit candles -
golden, warm, and lively little candles.

The days past remain behind us,
a mournful line of extinguished candles;
the ones nearest are still smoking,
cold candles, melted, and beant.

I do not want to look at them; their form saddens me,
and it saddens me to recall their first light.
I look ahead at my lit candles.

I do not want to turn back, lest I see and shudder
at how fast the dark line lenghens,
at how fast the extinguished candles multiply.

C.P. Cavafy